justice. we want it because this world sucks sometimes. we have an innate sense of what consequences are deserved when bad people do bad things. but here's what i'm feeling now:i deserve the wrath. i deserve it so much.. that i just WANT it to happen. i want it to happen so i can feel.... better. so i can feel as if i got what i deserved and can finally move on.
but that's not what happened. i received... grace. huh? i don't deserve it, and i don't even want it because it's not what i deserve. i know what i deserve. people should be yelling at me. God should be abandoning me. THAT'S what would make me feel better.
but that's not what God wants for me. even if i "want" it, that's not what God wants for me. even if i want it... that's not what God has in store for me. He throws grace at me even when i'm running away from it.
good thing our Jesus is good. (even if he's not safe, hehe)
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